I have been doing this blog
regularly for a few months now and I've tried to sort of maintain what you have
come to expect in content from my husband. I try to be consistent and motivate
comments and discussion. I give up, truly, it's just not me. I realized it
fully when someone said I was Prepper over the holidays and I felt deeply how
much I dislike being referred to as a Prepper. I am definitely reluctantly the
wife of a Prepper. My problem I think is twofold.
First, we are rebuilding our life
at what is "middle age" all over again from the bottom up. In essence
we are preparing after the fact with the pitiful little that's left.
Unfortunately, we are not alone. The world has shifted dramatically in the last
five years. However, in this moment as a couple it appears that we don't have a
skill set that applies to either the old world as it passes on or the vague
suggestions coming from of a newly emerging one. All we have is a goal to pay
the bills, keep plugging away at the learning, help others when we can and
going, doing and living the best life we can.
Second, as we approach 2013, it
seems like our country is moving into more and more divisions: money,
lifestyles, religions, goals. You name it seems to be splitting apart. It
doesn't have to be that way. It really doesn't, however, it’s less than likely
that we all had a spiritual awakening as the Mayan calendar ended so the future
is uncertain. All of us have a great many ifs about how we all will live and
what life will be like as we enter into this new year. I'm sure this is nothing
new. I'm positive my great grandmother experienced all of what we are going
through in her 100+ years of life (of course she had most of the skills we're
striving to re-learn so she had about a zillion up on me). She never told me
how she managed to handle all the changes though. She did give a hint about
what to do when the American dream died though.
She told me about a time during the depression, having nothing, feeding
kids, and the deep depression and fear that lead her to start the process of
suicide. She said she closed up the house and turned on all the gas. After a
bit one of the kids asked her why she was crying and she turned off the gas and
opened everything back up because she didn't have an answer. She told me she
guessed sometimes you just don't have words and crying is really the right
answer then you just get up and keep doing and living the best you can. She
always said you should have something extra in case you need it and you should
put money away for emergencies because it helps lessen the tears when you have
something. She was a tiny little Irish woman who was big on being able to hold
your own. I think that's part of the reason why I resist being called a
Prepper. I'm just doing what my grandma told me to do! I'm not doing anything
extraordinary or irregular.
Let’s face it though when we
prepare we are choosing the building blocks for the very bottom, the
foundation, of Maslow’s
hierarchy of needs (food, clothing, shelter, safety) with no idea where the
world is going or even what the possibilities are. Can anyone even afford to
prep that completely? How do you keep it from being something more like
hoarding? You know...oh I might have a use for those papers in an emergency...I
better keep them...all of them...each and every last one I ever get....there
might not be more! At this time of year, with all the reflection, I find myself
asking "What the heck do we prepare for?". Will it be storms, war,
the economy, solar flares, failure of government or just simply some other way
of life we have yet to experience? How
do I plan and prep for 5 years down the road? We have grown kids, a young one,
a grandson and aging parents. Do we plan and prep for more grandkids? Boys or
girls and how many? Teenage angst is most definitely a certainty with our minion
and I wouldn't even know where to start for elderly parent care. Do we prep for
only ourselves or to help others? What about sizes...and weather...would cloth
be better than already made clothing? Will the schools fail? Will we need
school books and books on many subjects or that are more advanced? Will our
youngest even have a college to go to when it’s time for going to college? What
will jobs be like? IT, MEDICAL, FARMING....or will they bring back manufacturing?
Will we finally live in the world of the future with flying cars, a green world
with alternative energies that strives to protect the planet, or a unified earth
much like that of Star Trek?
We've lost that hope for the
golden future somewhere in all the uncertainty and our daily struggle with our
current financial situation. It leads me to great reluctance in the area of
'prepping'. It is hard for me to continue to support it when it is hurtful to
our present existence and I see so little reward in it. Learning simplicity,
prepping, and the skills and knowledge that we have for home use sometimes
seems more forced upon us by necessity rather than to have grown out of our own
wants, desires and interests. I aim to try to turn that around in 2013. How we
choose to prepare should be about living our daily lives the best we possibly
can while making a good foundation for the future no matter what it brings.
(Hubby here ~ The Mrs. gave me
the option of deleting the following paragraph or leaving it in. I decided to
leave it as it shows some of the doubts that enter in to starting new projects,
businesses, or lifestyles. Just so you know, I too have ‘issues’ with being
called a prepper. It really is simply a lifestyle choice that I learned as a
kid living in upstate NY, where we had regular rolling brown outs and sometimes
went up to a week without power and where employment for my parents was sporadic.
We had no other choice than to live as what folks today call ‘preppers’.)
It is my belief that MOST of this
audience is a few steps ahead of me/us in homesteading skills and this blog is
way below a great many of its readers capabilities. I can’t prove those
statements are true though as next to no one replies in the comments here. I
just want to let you know my husband is the Facebook half and I'm rarely there
unless he tells me to go there...so if you are commenting there I may not
always see it. He is also basically the webmaster for this blog...I type...he
posts. Honestly if there were not a way to see the number of visits to the page
I'd think no one saw it. In cyber numbers we aren't even a bit of mist in the
air yet alone a drop in the bucket but my Internet savvy leaves something to be
desired.
So bear with me as I begin yet
again, renewing my commitment to not prepping, I really do dislike the term and
all the connotations it carries with it, but to our goals of self sufficiency,
learning, and all the small wondrous things I can find in this life. As I
surrender to the cycles of time and search for purpose and meaning in a life
caught in between two vastly different types of worlds, operating in both,
belonging comfortably and completely to neither. I will bid you good tidings
and a blessed new year.
Wifeofaprepper
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conveniently called “Kaya Self
Sufficiency”. I hope you have enjoyed this post and I hope you are getting
better at providing as much as you can for yourself and for your family, group,
or community.



